THINGS THAT NEED TO BE CHANGE

Every year talking about my resolution and every time i can't even make it success I'm kinda started to have hard heart to be faithful in GB, wanted to run away from Malaysia for 3 Years or maybe more than that. Wanted to continue my studies & part time job, wanted to renovate my room and decorate my house. A lot of thing I wanted to do, but thing have bother me about. What else beside salary.... I have been work in CITP FULL 3 years what I got is nothing, when something when wrong blaming is already expected. Beside blaming what else we will do? solve problem lo or else what for who going to solve? But problem is pin pointing was not a solution at the first place. Every time there is problem for sure you can see the true face for each and everyone of them. Yes every company will have this same problem, but before pin point at least they solve it then question you. Actually I really regret want to help in Company camp, because I start to feel so lazy!! gosh what have make me like this out of sudden? is it because too long break?

Today we 'yam cha' at ABC Cheras, we discuss about the problem in CITP in between 3 of us, probably what we about to tell boss won't take action by them. But what we can do as a staff? Voice up but no action taken, each time want to voice up but what we have answer always the same "ok we will change" or "soon we will change" everything is soon soon and soon, soon until we leave? Boss word we can't really take it as granted and we also can't believe what they say was totally true. Honestly at my age now no saving really really unsecure, not because i used it to travel is because the salary. Everyone saying i'm stupid, why stay you should have gone last time? I keep on asking why i want to stay???? What for I work hard for? What for I always work hard a word of praise also don't have.

One time, boss really break my heart. First thing, Does EVERYONE WILL NOT HAVE MISTAKE? Does EVERYONE 100% PERFECT? no right, everyone sure will have mistake no matter how long you work in the company. What makes my hearts break, I still remember Prudential Shanghai, all of us work like hell. Each and everyone of us really work till so late, than one day me & cindy (operation manager) work from 9am - 7 am than we go back and sleep just 4 hours 12pm we come back and work & all i have do all this, nothing not a word to praise you. NOTHING AT ALL but except for Cindy 'GOOD JOB CINDY' boss only praise her "Cindy have help us a lot for pru and work till morning 7am" hey i also have help, but do boss mention about this? no, not at all. Just one person who get all the good thing, from that day onwards i promise myself not worth it to work for them so late, just a praise word NOT INCREMENT also they can't even give to me. My hard work only GOD know & some of my colleague know, the boss know 'act don't know'. Sometimes i ask myself, why that time i stay to help them in Shanghai. If i go that time i really no need to stay so late for them. Anyway now say anything also useless. Sigh, every time talk about this incident i sure T.T....

I want to go away from CITP, which is changing!!! not just growing, but they are not getting serious about staff anymore... question is LYDIA WHAT FOR YOU WANT TO STAY IN SMALL COMPANY? SINCE IS SO SUFFER WHY NOT SUFFER IN BIG COMPANY WHICH THEY HAVE SOP!!!! I still thinking.....

Tomorrow, one of my colleague is going to face boss for tender of resignation letter. Shall see will they ask her to stay and change!!! Good luck!!!